So, where are we then?

I am approximately nine weeks and four days pregnant.

I found out that I was pregnant at five weeks and two days. When I saw that plus symbol, my jaw literally dropped and I couldn’t string a sentence together for a good 30 seconds – I just wordlessly turned the test around to face my partner.

Since then I have had my first ultrasound, where we got to see the heartbeat and I have never seen my partner’s face light up so much as when he saw the beating on the screen. It really was magical.

It is also the weirdest feeling. Before I had the ultrasound, I felt a little bit like was going mad. The pregnancy test had been positive, my body was changing (my boobs became ginormous overnight and they had been pretty big to start with), I felt queasy all the time, coffee and wine was starting to repulse me, I was weepy quite often… And yet I didn’t really feel pregnant. I honestly felt like it was all in my mind. So it was good to have the confirmation that, no, I wasn’t losing my marbles, there actually was a little thing inside me causing all this.

It’s still a bit of a strange place for me if I’m honest. I can’t feel the little Knöpfli inside me, obviously, but I know he or she is there. It’s a bit like having an alien inside you, is the conclusion I have come to.

I just hope that he or she is tucked up nice and warm and safe in there, happily floating around and enjoying life being the size of a green olive!